I used to enjoy working in small roles on television
I believe in being an individual. Who wants to live independently. We get several characters in which the woman is victimized so sometimes it becomes difficult for me to accept it but you have to accept it at the end of the day. So you have to pull the character towards you. What did the Udaari character do for you? It was very tough. A lot of people think that it is all about delivering the dialogues and crying but it was much more then that I think every 5th girl in our society has been through these problems. When I was doing the court scene and testifying that what had happened with me It was something I was familiar to You can say that Really?
I was familiar to it and I think that it would be easy for everyone to just talk and give credit to the writer but the emotions through which I went We could say that I am familiar with all those things that how does a girl react. when she goes through those things. Where were you born? I was born in Karachi And how many siblings? I have 2 elder brothers I am the youngest. So you are the only daughter? Yes, I am the only one A single sister Spoilt sister? No, I won't say that I was a spoilt girl It was very I was very responsible. who took a lot of burden at the age of 18 the burdens of my family. I have also been through a lot of dark times and I am glad that I stand strong today That is why it becomes difficult for me to accept those characters. sometimes I have been through so much in life but now I stand.
so strong that I sometimes think that why should we spend our life in such a week manner because it already is pretty small Just like you were saying. How were you as a child? I was very fierce I used to just throw things away. I used to teach anyone a lesson. who dare to fight me. Have you ever beaten boys? I haven't beaten boys, but I have been beating people with them and my brother used to study with me in the same school. So there was this thing that, your sister, our sister but I was always a tom boy. when I was in school I made sure that no one would mess with me. So didn't you play with dolls? I never liked them I was that girl who liked dolls and kitchen things. So you didn't collects bangals? Not at all So you used to cycle? I did, and i used to get bruised a lot Did you play cricket?
I didn't play it that much but as an individual. I was into a lot of games and I used to have more boys in my team and when the boys were playing, they wanted to play in my team. so I was that girl I wasn't the typical girl. So are you more feminine now? Yes, I am more feminine. now I want a good proper makeup and I want to look like a girl\ and feel like girl too. So isn't that amazing that you were able to live both types of lives Definately. You can't deny this that if you want to ride a cycle. you will ride a cycle then and if boys want to play with dolls, they should also I think so Really? Why not Who thought about this that boys cannot play with dolls and girls cannot play cricket thats very true.
This distinction between boys and girls thats why they face so many problems. You should understand each other. You have feminine and masculine side and if you have a balance between both these things and you become a very good human being. I agree with you because i think that we make our lives very difficult with all the thoughts and limitations that what they boys and girls should and should not do. We shouldn't complicate things in life. Were you ever scolded? Like, almost being beaten. Yes I was beaten too You were? Yes From mother or father. I was beaten by my mother and was almost beaten up by my father. Who saved you? No one did No one? How did you escape? I just want to be very honest in this interview Because you don't get to say all this on television From the time.
I was born, my mother was a little mentally disturbed but a wonderful mother She went through some things in life so she lost the balance in her life there is a disease that you call Schizophrenia I don't how to pronounce it. My mother has gone through it So there were times when my mom used to think that I was going somewhere else rather than to the shoot Because the patient usually thinks of weird stories in his mind. So there have been times. when I used to come home and my mother used to beat me a lot Her bangles used to bruise my cheeks too and I used to bleed and I had to go for the shoot and the makeup team would ask me what had happened and I didn't have the answer but I think that was a hard time because you don't have an answer to give, and you have to lie that something else bruised you but everyone already knew.
what had happeed those were dark
times those were really dark times. So how did you handle them? How I handled
them I was going through extreme stress and depression and what was you age at
that time? I was 16 or 17 years old and this is such kind of a thing that I was
seeing from the age of 14. So for me, I couldn't sleep at night because of the
things that I have been through Your mother was paranoid that what would happen
to me. I used to think at night there must be time. when I could sleep properly. I
used to get scared that someone is going to enter the room again somethings is
going to happen. This happened so many times that I used to wake up in the
middle of the night due to fear And this would go on continously.
I used to get scared but very few people that I know in my life. I can take of my watch and show you I have this tattoo on my hand and it says Alam A lot of people think that he is my boyfriend, I don't know why they think like this but he is a doctor and his name is Dr. Mohammed Alam. I met him when I was 21 years old. So he is the one who took me out of stress and depression Its a long story, about how he made it all happen.
So where were you brother and dather at that time? When you were going through all the hardships. you had no support system? It wasn't there because when a girl has to turn on the stove. she has to step back. I wouldn't blame anyone because I am a strong person.
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