I found myself completely alone at that time in my life
When I was leaving the house My brother was
one of the people who supported me. He told me that he supported me fully and if
I wanted to go and leave the house, he would be there for me but make sure that
I don't let him down. So even when we meet today. I have so much to share with
him that I am working on my fitness and that I wast to learn horse riding and
do all these things. So he somehow understood that I wasn't like every other
girl like those who like boys or do drugs etc because you do these things due
to stress and depression and people think that it is your support.
I made
fitness, and workout my support I made running my support. When my brother sees
all these things, he is so proud and he realized that I actually am a different
girl. So didn't you get scared when you left your house? because you have to
fear the situation, not knowing where you have to go No, I wasn't So where did
this strength come from. This is a very brave thing to do You knew that you
weren't handling the situation and you decided to start your own life. The
tattoo I just showed you I met Dr. Alam when I was 21\ My friend's mother used
to work with him. So I met him Very few people know about thim. He does not
disclose about himself. He has amazing students I have seen girls trained under
him.
I have seen girls learn martial arts there I have seen them work at
international level. So he is a doctor and he has this organization called Self
Stress Organization. So I went there After a year I met him I told him
everything that was happening in my life. He told me maybe I didn't like what he
was going to say but that we have been in contact for a year through e mail. You
have to do only one thing you just have to leave your house this is the only
way because you are getting sick and the place that is making you sick is the
same place you want to live and you want to take all the insults and agony but
earn for the same place too.
He said that this wasn't humanly possible and I was
getting weaker day by day So you need to find yourself and get out of that
house you need to be alone for sometime. So when I left that house. He was the
one who gave me an apartment. He had a place for all the students who would come
from abroad and he gave me the room with all the facilities like water,
electricity etc And become something so that you can get your own house. So I
stayed there for 6 or 7 months. So all the girls there were doing different
things like studying, doing martial arts or working on there fitness. So all the
girls were trained by Dr. Alam. So I used to think that if I came to him in my
childhood, I would have become something big.
He was the one who actually told
me that I wasn't fit I had black circles, and back aches and when the director
would tell me to stand, I would start having vertigo because I had taken so
much stress, I had lost my fitness. He told me to live there and work on my self
become something, and the moment I become something he will will not hold me
there. So I got my car and my house and after 6 or 7 months I left I was out
like a bird. He gave me wings to fly Every needs a guide I am so glad that you
understood this Only few people understand this thing Its not necessary that
you parents are the one who do everything for you For me, the person. who did
everything was a teacher who came into my life.
He made me stand on my feet. When
i met him, he did tell me that I need to get out of the house and live alone. When I used to get ill on daily basis I used to have aches all over my body. I
used to vomit And I couldn't understand that what was going on Reports showing
loss of blood and it wasn't recovering. So he called me and told his student to bring
me too. So he called all his students for luch and I saw the strength in the
girls there Those girls are not allowed to go out in public very boldly. They
used to jump on to walls. They were only 15 or 16 years old. He told me to look
at there fitness And I was so unfit he told me to squeeze the hand with all the
strength. I had I held his hand and squeezed as hard as I could he told me that
my fitness was zero and I had no strength.
So you need to have physical fitness
to fight the world Emotional and physical Here people don't really care about
physical fitness of girls HE told me to just start jogging every morning he
told me to build stamina, and then I could add strength and flexibility
training afterwards. He gave me instructions for 5 to 6 months Without any
medicine or drip. My back aches ended My vertigo ended. My vomits ended and the
loss of blood. I don't know how it was recovered. So how would you feel that a
girl who couldn't shoot for 1 or 2 hours because she was so unfit She had lost
all her health Everything started coming back to her.
She earned money, got a
house and a car How would you feel? So many people ask me that I tattooed his
name these are the reasons this the reason I came on your show so I could tell
everyone the reason. why I had his name tattooed on my hand. He just changed my
life Mentally, emotionally and physically or by making me a good human. He told
me that I should not run after money Become a good human being. This is what
matters the most in life Have you forgiven the people who hurt you? Yes When I
went to Dr Alam, the first thing he told me was that I was filled with anger
for people. He told me that if I don't take out this anger, I will always stay
weak. So how did you take it out the anger? It didn't get out in a day obviously
To forgive and take out the anger.
It didn't happen in a week. That I just woke
up and I forgive everyone Did you do some exercises? Or did you do some extra
effort? Emotional exercises I think decision is the biggest exersize He told me
that taking decision is the most important thing in life. When I decided that i
don't want to think about people who hurt me. I might have also hurt some people. I might not an angel of course I used to cry a lot, and there was not a day in
which I did not cry and i used to think about people who hurt me. I thought that
why should I spend my life in such a manner and why should I cry on things that
don't even exist now Like if I drink water, I have drank it and now I will
leave the room I met you, and now I move on,
I had a fun time, yes, but I will
move on It is important to get out of your past very important. The more you
hold on to you past, the more the chances are of experiences the same thing in
the future People would see all that on your face and in your future So, why
not live you life like this only He used to say that One life one chance one
opportunity. I used to wine about all the exercises and everything but he used
to just reply Hina one chance one life one opportunity He tole me that you
won't get a life again.
So when I started forgiving people I became stronger
everyday and the power that you could feel everyday. I used to feel so strong I
stoped caring about the things that people did to me I hugged that person Not
that it would benefit me but because you want to be at a good stage in your
life. You want to have mental piece and the thing that matters the most is that
you are mentally satisfied. We are like how are we can we have this mental peace.
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