My family gave me all kinds of support to work outside
This used to bother me initially that whenever I work in any kind of project I change as a person after that and my friends think of me as a different person How long does it take you to come out of a character? I don't think you ever come out of your character If I learned something from my Indian movie character I refer to it a lot because it had a lot of isolation I think something impacts you the most when you are alone And I was away from family and I was away from Urwa for the very first time Your sister was not with you That was so difficult for me I changed in that isolation Your parents and your siblings dont mind f you changed but the people around you and those who matter they accuse you for being changed so quickly I still don't understand this I think growth and changing is a nice thing but I don't think people around us still understand People cannot understand
what we actors go through And if I say this in an another interview The anchor would not understand because you yourself are an actor And you have been through so many projects. When you give something to the character and the character gives you something back And it changes you completely your belief and behaviour Your life changes after that and you have to accept it. Any character that took a big toll on you? I think the character that I played in my Indian movie because she was a sick girl and depressed she had lack of love and then she dies.
The death scene was the climax so we shot 3 alternative death scenes That took a huge toll on me. You don't feel it when you act or when someone else watches the movies, they don't relate you to the character. They just move on but what you go through for dying and being sad and miserable for a character. That you are very helpless, alone and depressed To make people believe all that rejection it becomes a part of you So that takes a toll on you because you are not like that in your real life. When I cam back from Bombay and I used to hangout with my siblings they used to become so worried that I had gone so quite because dying so many times over and over again affects you I learned something and I will share this with you because I am a fellow actor.
I went for voice training the problem was that i would bring my character home with me as I was very dramatic back then and I was doing very disturbed and dark roles. There were actors from around the worls. I asked for a special session with them about how I could unwind with the characters and what I learned from them was when you come home you do the exact opposite of the role you did because you have to consciously remove it like playing with kids and listening music etc And I think that these thing start attracting you too Do the things that you don't Do the things that your character wouldn't. You can make sculptures and even keep a pet Its so funny that I did all of this This what I learned I didn't consciously know what I was doing But I think I tried to unwind on my own But right after Sanam Teri Qasam, I did Sammi. Which again was a dark and disturbing character so after Sammi,
I thought I could never act again. I used to chat with Urwa and Farhan as we live together. we talk a lot about our work And siblings or people from other field would not have understood but because we have a same field. Your brother is a singer? Brother in law My brother is still studying. He is still doing his bachelors in accounts. So lets see what he does in his life. He is very creative. How much was your first check? Actually Urwa and I received our first check together It was of 16 thousand rupees. What did you do we that money? I think I gave it to Mama. We gave it to Mama and I think she spent it on us But presenting her the check made us happy. What makes you really happy? I think when I see my mother happy Thats my absolute happiness Because now with my LLB final year and film dates clashing. I wanted to do it next year I called my mother that 20 days before my exams. I have a schedule for my film and its a lot of study so I cannot do it. She usually tells us that it is our choice but she called me again and said that she was thinking of attending my convocation later this year.
So when she talks like this, you just want to do your best for her. You just want to make her happy And I think that my absolute happiness Making your mother happy And what do you do for yourself? When Mama is happy then so are we What were your dreams. when you were just a child? What did you want to become? I think that all my dreams were pretty vague Maybe thats why I didn't where my passion lived I love travelling the world. I always steal Urwa's dreams. Its true I am so inspired and influenced by her that I do whatever she wants to do Its a pattern now I don't know what she will fell about this, I have never said this to her also She had a dream even in childhood of travelling the world. She wanted to travel a lot Slowly I started thinking of it as my dream as well I think you both are twins I think we are twin souls And I am also a copycat Its true because I think that her decisions are always right. Its just the fear of being wrong and I know that Urwa is always right.
I have seen it in the last years. She is
just always right So I want to do the right thing Are you ever jealous? I am
never jealous I just look up to her that how is she always right? She is
intuitive if you interview her like this you will know there is a lot happening
inside her and maybe thats why all her decisions are right. so I copy her
decisions. That she did Udaari and now I will do Sammi small decisions like
these that I don't consciously do Now I realize the pattern I think you get
inspired because I think she gives you the courage. I am jokingly saying that I
copy her She is the only one who gives me courage. She has always seen the best
in me. She realized my talent when I didn't when I was busy thinking. whether I
should be a doctor or a fashion designer. She thought I was gifted andI should
be an actor. Its she who leads the way and I am just so grateful for that if it
wasn't for her, I wouldn't be anywhere Have you ever hated? anything or
anybody?
I realize that it is a very strong emotion but I have felt it for for
a society that tries to undermine other people's hardwork. I felt it for people
who try to categorize you if you are an actor Or they try to put you down if
you are an actor or look down upon you because they are not you I don't hate
them, it just hurts me. Does social media affect you? Not only close but distant
people you know on social media in their hearts they want to do what you are
doing but they pretend that they don't This hurts me that how much our
profession matters to us and how much hard work we do Yes it is a privileged
job but it all seems very easy for them. We have to sacrifice are sleeps and are
days and at the same time. we are creating something for their entertainment if
someone is doing hardwork in another profession its not for someone else's
entertainment.
We devote our lives, I can't say that today because I just started my career but I can talk about you and other veteran actors who have given their entire lives to entertain people And it takes people a second to judge this profession. This hurts me I don't like using the word hate but its something that bothers me at heart. Do you forgive easily? Its rare if I don't want to forgive someone easily its a choice I can overlook things I am not affected by a lot of things People's behavior doesn't affect me But if it does, it hurts me a lot.
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